I teeter between agnostic and atheist. I stand ready and willing to accept god's word. I beg him to touch my heart. Just one second of his precious time. I feel nothing. I can't trust the men who have created the holy books. I see them benefit at their follower's expense. That doesn't seem like the sort of thing a loving god would try to establish. So I do by best with what's in my heart. And if that's not good enough, then !%* him. I'll burn with a smile knowing that when it counted, I tried my best.