I grew up attending a friendly United Church of Christ, also called Congregationalist Church. I was baptised as an infant, attended Sunday School and confirmed in the same church. When confirmed, I "confessed" I was agnostic and only being confirmed to please my mother (my mother brought us to this church; my dad was a Catholic who didn't attend church). Shortly after confirmation, I drifted away from structured religion and didn't have a relationship with the Divine for many years. In my thirties, I discovered Native American spirituality and I felt some interest in that. I went to a UU church and eventually joined their church without walls. I continue to the freedom of belief they honor. In my forties, I discovered Sufism and also Islam. I have a love-hate relationship with Islam. And I also am "in the closet" when it comes to my love for the Feminine Divine along with the other faiths I've been practiced along with Islam such as the Ancient Egyptian religion. Its been complicated to say the least. I am finally coming to understand that the relationship with the Divine can never be forced into a packaged religion, especially one that forces one to believe and not believe certain things. Islam has felt more like a prison lately and I am becoming more a mystic with Islamic practices. I believe the God of my understanding is not going to send me to hell or any other person to hell for believing what brings me closest to Her. Though in Truth, the Truth is Beyond Our Understanding, how we understand must be between us and our maker not between us and a set of religion's set of laws and dogma if the laws and dogma leave us feeling lost and far away from God/dess. May I never feel far away from God/dess again. And may my sharing this path to the experience of Truth help others find their Truth also.